Abyss

I know hell exists

3 am and here without you

Enveloped by darkness

Surrounded by loneliness 

And afraid to fall asleep

Because the fiend that

Fosters in my soul

Won't set me free

Even in my dreams now

My mind is tired and afraid

Of seeing the things I now see

Behind these shut eyes

As they try to take me away

And I cannot gather the strength

To fight them off anymore

Because the longing

Of the comfort of your arms around me

As I slowly drown into the darkness

Of the most peaceful sleep

I had

Ever since I stopped clutching onto Teddy

Has robbed me of the ability

To fight myself all by myself

And I yearn for those nights

When you would not let go of me

All through the night 

Till we woke up.

I know what hell is

3 am and longing for 
Your smell, my lullaby