Saturday, 23 August 2014

Confessions of a Monophobic

The days go by
Fluently and facilely
The people who love her
And the people she loves
Hem her 
In ardour and amity
As the sun is high
So is the thin line
Of her pink lips
Curved up at its edges
To make her face gleam 
Red from the summer heat
And glowing because of the people she meets
As the bolt of her door
Appears in front of her sight
In the dead of the night
Her fears envelope her 
And try to drown her
In a dark cloud she can't escape from
Her bouts of loneliness
And helplessness
When she has no work to do
And not a single soul to talk to
Her demons slowly crawl out
From that space
Where she buried them
For the sake of the happy daylight

The people of the world
In dreamland and repose
But her nocturnal mind
Doesn't let her succumb 
To the weakness called tranquillity 
As she sits upright
The realization hits her
Straight in the lungs
Like a strong blow
As the wind rushes out of her carcass
She gasps for air
Fumbles for a breath
Her anxious eyes darting 
In search of somebody, anybody
But all she can see
Is the pitch of darkness
That penetrates her being
And she fathoms 
That her worst enemy is herself
She's in wrong company
When she's all by herself 


In the dark you sit
With your face close to mine
A faint glow of light
Coming from far away
Illuminates your beautiful face
Our bare bodies touching,
And mine trembling with the energy
That your presence makes me feel

Every time your lingering fingers
Touch my barren skin
A spark runs up my spine
Like electricity passing through me
And every word you whisper
Sends my body rippling
Fervently pleading for more

In your arms I lay
With our breaths ragged,
Our hearts a symphony of uneven rhythms
And I knew
That I'd need this sunlight
To keep my head up to the sky
For every moment I spend living
From this time forth

My manipulative heart whispered
To my free spirit
That feared needing a soul
To keep mine alive
And loathed annihilating me
"Let yourself feel
All the good things
That you thought you were incapable of feeling."